yeepee =]]
ytd nitex daddy pass miie a fone tuh let miie use ! iim sho happy .
iie put myui sim card inside dah fone . although dhere ish no prepaid inne it but its ok .
dah next day wen myui mum she wen duwn tuh supermarket , she simply bought a prepaid card foerh miie top up , she pass it tuh miie wen she reached hume . iim sho happy .
immediately after iie habe top up , iie called myui stead nd tok tuh him till nuw since 2 pm . he told miie dhat he miss miie alot nd was worried dhat sumethingy might habe happen tuh miie this few days wen iie nurt with him . he fall sick ! sho worried . everyday eat once oni nd just bread oni . every drinkin 3 tuh 4 bottles ofh beer . nd suffered from cold nd sore throat nd slightly fever nd cough . hais . laogong , iim sowwie dhat wen ue really nid miie iie cant be able tuh be with ue tuh tkc ofh ue . iim such a failure being a stead . hais . iie miss ue alots laogong .
from uer voice iie kan hear dhat this few days iie nurt bein wifh ue , ue are jusrt makin urselfh tuh suffer ! iie dhunch knoe whether anythingy will happen tuh miie inne this period ofh time . but even yesh , iie hope ue really kan tkc ofh urselfh . becus iie know even we are nurt together but no matter whad our hart ish still together . iie nid ue alot alot . but ue ? iim nurt shure ofh it at all . from dah day iie met ue , iie knew ue are guy dhat will brighten myui lyfhe nd walkin dah path wifh miie forever . why cant couples be together forever , kan oni became memories ! even iie habe forgotten ue , forgotten dah world ,iie os0h wurn be able tuh forget dah sweet memories iie habe with ue !!!!

My Last Wish `

hais . tuday afternoon iie was left with myui niece at hume while myui mum went duwnstairs tuh get sume ingredients foerh dinner .
wen she came hume , iie start searchin foerh foods amount dah plastic bags .
nd iie found one envelop writing my name nd myui sku name on top .
as iie was about tuh take it nd check out whad is it , my mum snatch it awhile from miie .
sho iie dhunch kare sho much but iie knew it must be sumething wierd .
sho as my mother ish preparing food foerh dinner , iie wen in tuh dah room without her notice , iie search foerh dah envelop .
iie found it out ofh dah sudden in myui primary sku bag sho iie open it quietly nd jus slightly read it . it has a map on a piece ofh paper showin dah way tuh gho tuh juvenile court .
iie continue lookin at dah other paper nd iie realised was reports on miie this 1 year plus iim inne canberra secondary sku . nd iie slightly read it over .
iie notice dhat it was report dhat was supposed tuh be bought tuh juvenile court tuh send miie tuh girl's hume . iim nurt shure wifh it but slightly shud be ifh iim nurt wrong . iie just find it curious ofh this . probably they just dhunch wan miie tyuh know anythingy till dah day they send miie tuh attend dah juvenile court nd sentence tuh gerl's hume ???
iie dhunch know anythingy either . hais . even its sho , iie habe nothingy tuh say nd express any more . in case anythingy happen tuh miie . iie hope from tuday onwards , after this bloggie iie habe post . iie hope dhere will be sumeone kan help miie kip on call myui stead hus sayin lookin foerh ben nd help miie inform himdhat , iie did nurt ran away with another guy but just probably sumethingy might happen tuh miie . ifh this few months iie did nurt even wen tuh mit him up , iie hope dhat he will understand nd continue tuh wait foerh miie . ifh anyone willin tuh help , please tag miie nd i'll let ue knoe his hus number . thanks bery much cus this ish myui last wish before anythingy happen tuh miie .

from 29th jan 2007 onwards .
hamster ish totally change ! she dhunch believe inne anybody anymore .
all she nid ish BenjamineChenWeiFeng .
dah one whu ish willin tuh drop 3 tears foerh hamster .
SharinaTangSiewLing SWEAR SHE LOVES BenjamineChenWeiFeng TILL SHE DIES <333
25.October.2006 - o539Am.x NEBER SAY ENDS NO MATTER WHAD !!
wen she ish being release from dah jail HOUSE !
she wurn be a hamster before , she wurn lie anymore .
nd she wurn care foerh anyone anymore but just dah HIM !
ish friends nd families make her becume inne this state , sho dhunch ever blame her !!!

we habe broken up on 24th jan 2007 , patch on 25th jan tuh 28th jan 2007 [midnitex].
cus iie lied tuh him nd iie knew this was whad iie deserve .
on 24th jan 2007 , he found out all dah truth dhat iie habe lied tuh him .
we just broken up like dhat . from his eyes was 3 drops ofh tears fallin down tuh his faces .
becus he dhunch wanna break up . but he habe no choice .
but before he left he told miie dhat he ish gibing miie one months ofh time tuh change everything . nd he promise miie dhat he will definitely wait foerh dah day iie gho back tuh him nd said iie habe change ! nd ie promise him dhat iie will definitely change . nd before iie left , iie requested dhat iie hope he will be accompanyin miie foerh dah next day as it was supposed tuh be our 3 months anniversary .
25th jan 2007 , he came outside myui sku tuh fetch miie nd bring miie gho walk walk !!
he brought miie walkin ard nd we chat nd chat . foerh a sudden , iie held up his hand nd start tellin him dhat iie just cant afford tuh lose him . nd we patch up just like this . everyday we habe tuh hide here nd there tuh be together . ish sho tired foerh dah both ofh us .
28th jan 2007 , iie quarrelled wifh father nd he came up tuh ben hse tuh find miie , at midnitex .
myui father gave him a tight slap on his face . iie cried immediately foerh dhat slap . it really hurts . iie was dhen drag hume wifh myui dad pulliin myui hair here nd dhere . wen iie reach hume . myui dad gets chain tuh lock myui legs together . nd drag miie here nd dhere at hume . he told miie he ish gonna treat miie like a dog , but nurt a human being from dhat onwards .
he keep on kickin , slapin nd punchin miie all over my body nd he wen back tuh room tuh take a belt tuh beat miie all over a body . whole body ish bruises nd injuries . iie habe nothingys tuh express . they asked miie whether tuh choose tuh saty wifh family or benjamine . iie think twice nd iie choose benjamine at last . he ask miie again nd he warned miie that ifh iie choose benjamine again . he shall beat miie tuh death . butd iie choose benjamine at last . tuh covered everythingy by myuiselfh , iie gotten beaten everytimes he cumes out from rooms . he throw foods on the floor for miie tuh eat nd iie did nurt eat at all . even bath os0h cannurt take out dah chain . hais . all ish tuh make shure he wurn dho anythigny tuh benjamine from dhat onwards . iim like a dog stayin at home wifhout any freedom . but iie dhunch mind ifh this ish tuh make shure nothingy bad will happen tuh benjamine . although iie cant get tuh him at all but iim shure the time he ish at home nd iie nurt dhere means nothingy bad will happen . probably he ish happy outside wen iim sufferein at all but its ok . iie dhunch mind . iie just hope dhat he will be happy dhats all . ifh iie knoe he ish happy outside iie will be happy too !!! probably this ish dah first time ii willin tuh sacrifice sho much foerh a guy iie just habe a relationship wifh him foerh 3 months . but iie knw why iim willin just becus ofh dah 3 drops ofh tears from his eyes !!! although iim missin him everyday , butd dheres nothingy iie kan dho . just lookin at dah xiao zhuzhu he boughty foerh miie every day nitex . nd quietly cryin thru out days nd days . ben ; iie will definitely be back tuh find miie ! hope ue will be waitin !!!! sharina love benjamine <33

BYEBYE HOLIDAYS !!!

sho fast ! 2 months ofh holiday just pass like dhat . every day staying at myui sia0eh hus . dhoing nothingy . hahas . butd feels bery happy bein wifh him . mwarhs ! 25october2006 ! iie loorfe ue laogong . tomorrow start sku lerhs . sianx . nitex nitex .

BIRTHDAY SARKS !

birthday ? nurt happy at all . no sisterhs specially arrived .

stead ? scolded nd quarrelled wifh miie . hais ! iie dhunch even kn0e iie open this b'day party foerh whadd ? nurt even enjoying myui selfh at all . hais .

whad habe iie been dhoin foerh myui bday ? prepared sho much food nd events foerh fwends . butd none ofh those special nd important arrived . myui worse bdae ever inne myui lyfe ! nd unexpectable quarrelled wifh dah closest on dhat day . he kept scoldin nd scoldin . iie cried nd ran away . he ish dah closest already . butd yet he treated miie like this . iie really habe nothingy more tuh express from myuiselfh !

IM A FCUKIN BICTH !

HAIS . whad dah fcuk iie dhoin nuwadas ?

kind ofh fcukin thinkin nd action done by miie .

iie failed tuh be a perfect stead .

forgive myuiselfh foerh dhoin all this ish impossible de lurhs .

although ish holiday already , kan gho out nd play le .

butd having sho much thingys hide inne myui hart

dho iie still habe dah mood tuh play ard ?

iie dhunch think sho . although iie knoe there ish many fwends round miie

making myui life remains happy every day .

although iie look happy actually iie nurt at all nurhs .

iie just wanna hide inne dah darkness where no one ish dhere nd no one kan find miie .

iie wanna cry out loud tuh let euu knoe .

butd even iie dho will euu really kares ?

totally no time tuh blog at all till tuday .

every accompanyin euu here nd dhere nd at euur hus .

iie dhunch mind . butd iie really hope dhat sum times euu really kan understand miie more .

iie hope euu kan love miie more dhen iie dho .

cus iie really loorve dhat much dhat it cant be describe any more .

kan we put away all our "xin shi" nd concentrate on this relationship which iie really willin tuh last nd treasure it ???

iie wanna leave butd dho iie bear tuh ? iie dhunch think sho at all !

jus woke up . feelin sho tired .

where iim ghoin tuh gho next ? tuah or hume ?

shad argh !!! iie finally realised yinqx nd gina ish myui most relyable fwend le .

although sume times might quarrel wifh each other nd gib attitude .

butd we wurn lie tuh each other !

sisterhs dhunch lie , ifh sisterhs lie are nurt sisterhs .

oni they pei miie all this day before myui court day .

iie love them llotas .

birthday cuming nearer nd nearer .

whu kan actually able tuh pei miie celebrate wifh miie ?

hais .

openein chalet at sentosa on 7 dec tuh 9 dec 3d 2n .

those whu wanna cume , iie welcume !

RONGYING . REGINA . YANGYIN . HUIJUN . MANAGER . AHBOI . JAC . HOWARD . ZHENHAO . AMELIA . JASLIN . JIAWEI . SHAERMAN . KENNETH . YENPING . YENCHENG . FRANCESCA

all DEFINITELY MUST cume !!!!!!

whu dhunch cume iie kill whu .

at this moment ! hahas .

rongying still sleepin . whad dah !

she zhu tou larhs her . hahas .

lta at nitex dhen blog again !